I’ve told this story before, but I feel inspired to share it again. One time, when I left the ministry, I talked with one of my mentors, looking for guidance and advice. He asked me, “Well, David, what do you want?” Guess what. I couldn’t answer him. I didn’t know what I wanted. I was never allowed to know what I wanted. I was only allowed to figure out what the Lord wanted, and do that. Want that. So I was totally out of touch with my own self, my own desires, and my own life. I had no idea what I wanted. I had to go through a few stages: I had to feel okay giving myself permission to even try to figure out what I wanted. Then I had to actually know what I wanted. Then I had to go for it! I had to overcome guilt and move ahead with a brazen disregard for my religious sensibilities and a courageous respect of my own desires. It took a long time, but I know what I want. And I’m totally okay with it. And I’m happy. Do you know what I’m talking about?
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