Before 2009 when I had a profound and life-changing spiritual experience… that eventually led to my leaving the ministry in 2010… I had been reading David Bohm’s papers on quantum physics.
Reading this, along with Krishnamurti, Merton, Carlo Rovelli, etc., I believe were the catalysts that provoked this deeply life-changing “flash of insight” I had in March of 2009.
I put it in quotation marks because I don’t know what to call what I experienced.
But what I “saw” was the unity of all things… that deep and underlying oneness. I felt an immediate sense of peace of mind… a peace of mind that has never left… and knew that this oneness was the primary reality, not the illusion of separateness.
Now, I believe and act as though we are all one, and that the division and separateness is an illusion. We don’t have to create this oneness, but more manifest it… live as though it is true… because it is!
I naively assumed everyone would appreciate this vision of oneness I saw. Remarkably, this assumption of oneness was what got me into trouble.
It was a difficult lesson for me to learn… that most people prefer division and separateness because of their fears that leads to favouritism and exclusion. It affirms their false sense of superiority and supremacy.
That the church cooperates with and operates in and profits from the perpetuation of this illusion was a heartbreaking revelation.
I knew I could not go on in this context. I had to leave.
No one begged me not to.
And that’s okay.
Maybe we all intuitively knew what was best for me. And what was best for them.
