This year comes to a close.
And so did my meetings with my therapist.
We had four meetings.
That's all it took for me to figure out what was going on.
I mentioned it last week. When I get in a funk, it's because deep down I'm frustrated about something.
And usually this something is that I'm feeling trapped or stuck or oppressed.
When I figured out that I wasn't really trapped at all (I mean... I KNEW this but couldn't see it yet)... then I felt the freedom I long for.
My mind fell into the trap of believing that my desire to be authentic could not co-exist with my desire to be loved and accepted and appreciated for who I am. In fact, my therapist and I helped me realize that this is totally natural and human and even healthy.
I walked out of my last session with her feeling my freedom again. And happy.
Realizing you're navigating life well... being yourself while also keeping yourself safe... is a good thing. And wise.
How about you? Do you feel this tension? And how do you deal with it?
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