At the time, I had just left the ministry after 30 years as a Pastor. And now after 30+ years of marriage, I was thinking about throwing in the towel because I felt so challenged by my shifting beliefs and reality.
Fortunately, I was aware of my confusion and the challenging experience I was going through. I decided to NOT make any major life decisions while I was in that state because I knew that would be a big mistake!
This period of my life and relationship was so challenging for me because everything I grew up believing (and then teaching) was starting to fall apart. I had a lot of fear about how my spiritual changes were going to impact my relationship with Lisa, and I had so many questions…
⇒ Is Lisa going to leave me?
⇒ Would it be possible to still love each other despite having very different beliefs?
⇒ How will this change our life? Are we still going to go to church? Pray at meals? Etc.?
⇒ What were we going to tell our friends?
⇒ What were we going to tell our kids?
⇒ What about my parents? What are they going to think?
I’m sure you can relate to some of this because it’s one of the biggest challenges people face when their beliefs are changing - the impact on their family and relationships.
This moment in the kitchen was memorable for me because it was so potent. Feeling so numb, I knew I needed to get support, otherwise I’d be going down a very dangerous and lonely path.