Okay… I’m going to get very real about one of the most vulnerable things in my life.
Buckle up!
When I left the ministry and the church in 2010, I instinctively knew deep down that I was going to have to deal with my very unhealthy issues around money, business, marketing and sales, and success.
Because, up to that point, I had survived on quite a pure expression of a poverty and victim mentality. Which kind of worked while I was in the church. But now that I was going to have to make real money in the real world with real products and services, I had to figure this out.
And fast!
I talk all about this in my equally cheesy titled book, Money is Spiritual, in far more detail. (Click here to get it on Amazon).
I still struggle with feeling really yucky about all this.
It’s the same as what I’ve already shared with you about getting out of my head and into my body. For decades I totally lived in my head… theologizing and ministering and obsessing about my spiritual life. To break myself away from that and immerse myself in my body and live in this physical world has been a feat… and a daily feat at that! And it mostly is me fighting against this ingrained religious urge to escape from the material and rise into the spiritual. The same with money, etc. It takes daily intention to break free from the whole money-is-evil mentality to actually enjoy and feel fulfilled in the material world.
Please don’t misunderstand. This doesn’t mean I’ve dived into complete hedonism and greed. Not at all. For me, it’s more about finding that healthy balance… which to me sometimes FEELS like hedonism and greed… when it actually isn’t. It’s just finding that healthy place of being here now… in my body and in my business.
Even as I write this to you, my mind is saying, “Wow did religion ever f*ck you up!”
Yes, it did. But I was complicit. I complied, cooperated, and conspired with it.
Now I’ve broken free, but it takes effort to remain free.
Like someone once told me: In war, it’s one thing to gain ground. It’s another to keep it!
This is why I'm reading books that I would never in a million years have read... like "How To Get Rich". Understand... it's not that I want to get rich... but I am stretching myself using outlandish tools. This is me immersing myself in forbidden ideas to break myself free from the limiting beliefs that religion baked into me.
I hope some of you get what I’m trying to say here.
It’s about giving yourself permission to CHANGE!
